How did I save myself from committing Suicide?
Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.
~ Henry Wordsworth
Hello Freewriters Community! Welcome to my blog. A man passes through different stages in his life. Sometimes, it is the success that kisses his feet, and sometimes,s, it is the disappointment that ends his life. In both conditions, we should believe that there is nothing permanent in our life. God has different trials for us; hence, life is not easy for everyone. This world is like an examination hall, and everyone has to pass through different exams. Now it depends either we just pass the test or we get good marks. It is better if we manage everything well and enjoy everyday life on this planet.
Is this world Heaven or Hell?
A person who is spending his days and nights in a colorful world. He has satisfaction of mind and different sources for entertainment and recreation. He surely will consider this world as Heaven. While a person who didn't have anything to eat. He is always busy in fighting with different problems. Moreover, although he has Wealth but doesn't have satisfaction and pleasure in life surely this world will be like a He for him.
It had been many days since I'd fought with many thoughts., I'm feeling hopeless, and disappointment is getting dominance on me. This life is no longer like a bed of roses for me, and its thrones are causing injuries to my whole body. To make things short, I'm hurt and panicked by following things happening in my life.
Broken Feelings
It had been years since I separated myself from my love, but still,, I'm fighting a battle inside. Sometimes, broken feelings take full control of my mind, and I become helpless. This is the first factor that often influenced my mind.
Failures
For a couple of months, I've been doing my best to follow my dreams. Whenever I'm too nearer to my destination, I find myself stuck at a point, and failure becomes my fate. I appeared in the Erasmus Scholarship Interviews, but I failed. I started investing in different land projects, and I got lost. I bought a new Android, and its screen got scratched in just two months. What is happening in my life? There is a row of failures in my life that are enough for my disappearance from this world.
Gangrene
It is the second month since our home physician made a diagnosis of Gangrene. It is the main reason, my engagement on many platforms dropped a lot. Although I'm doing my best to control headaches with medications sometimes there is uncontrollable pain after medicine as well. I can't describe the situation here in words, but I'm frustrated, and it is engulfing my life slowly.
Family Criticism
A person who is failing and has bad mental Health is an easy source of Criticism from relatives. They didn't know what they were putting in; they just appeared and made a bombardment of words. I'm thankful to God that my parents are still with me and I'm able to fight with family critics. It is also a factor of constant pressure in my life now.
How I fought with them and Saved my Life?
Although it was not easy for me to save my life from disappointments, I was successful in controlling negative thoughts. I was doing the following things that helped me a lot in controlling my nerves and feelings of suicide.
Busy Lifestyle
If something is continuously hurting and a source of pain for us, then we need to divert our attention from it. We need to keep ourselves in doing those things that can provide peace of mind. I saved my life by joining a Gym, Gardening at Home, and watching different movies in my free time. I have a schedule that has a full tight routine now.
Blogging
When negative thoughts prevail in my mind, I like to share them on social media. The ability to share reduces my stress and frustration. Moreover, some people suggest solutions to me.
Reading
Although I don't have a bookish personality, I'm reading some books currently to get new ideas and strategies to control my mind. Some authors suggest creative ideas that are not only practical but also help in saving life from Suicide.
These above things are now part of my routine. I have successfully vanished from my feelings of suicide. Moreover, I'm feeling some positive changes in my personality. Now, I like to enjoy every failure and learn from every critic. Whether it is a success, or it is a failure, everything is part of life, and we have to accept things with bravery. I'm happy to engage myself in a busy routine, to read different books, to have creative ideas, and to blogging, especially on Hive and Medium, where I not only learn but also earn. This is what my days of life are passing; I'm happy to share the current real story of my life here. Thanks!
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