Weekend-Engagement: The best decision I will be making
I am beyond happy in my relationships with my family, friend, colleagues, and love life. In terms of my career, I consider myself blessed because my status is far better than it was seven years ago. My relationship with my daughter is the one thing that genuinely concerns me.
This saddens me every time we talk on the phone, because of how she acts, how she answers, how she doesn't pay attention to the things I'm telling, and how she continuously cancels my phone calls due to her being preoccupied with what she's watching on the internet. Most of the time, I feel guilty about leaving her, especially when she is disciplined by her grandparents for her behavior. How I feel guilty when times that she's crying and I cannot be on her side to comfort her.
I feel guilty about how at times she is allowed by her grandparents on her father's side of using phones or watching YouTube ALL day. How I feel guilty that I was not there guiding her in her formative years. Even if I come home every month, even if I spend days with her still it isn't enough to teach her how to be a good girl.
There was this time when I was speaking to her on the phone and she was upset, I asked her what's been bothering her. She said she was upset because I didn't tell her to throw her diaper in the garbage bin. That's the time that I realized that even if we only have limited time together, she still remembers how to sort things out. How she wanted to be commanded.
By this time, I having a hard time deciding if I should prioritize my career and providing for my family above being a mother and setting a good example for my child. I know I cannot change how things should be. All I can do is to be the better version of myself, both as a mother and as a person.
If I have the chance to shape my life into the life that I wanted, I will quit my job and devote my time to my little family. For me, that would be the best decision that I will be making. 💜
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I am Ruffalyn, from a coastal municipality in the province of Leyte, a soon-to-be architect by profession and a working mom. Join me as I bring to light the inner piece of me.
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Sometimes I do that to my parents but just ensure you show her you really care by being there for her, converse with her even when she's not in the mood with time everything would be alright and don't forget to pray also
So sweet of you. Thanks for the advise.. Yes I will, to never forget to pray 😇
Thank you also for the engagement concept @galenkp 😇
Life is full of tough choices and sometimes the best one is the hardest. In your case, providing for your family and having to travel away to do so, I can totally understand how sad that makes you feel and how much you're wish to change it. We must all do the things that are required though, no matter how difficult.
Thank you for sharing this personal story and for supporting the #weekend-engagement concept.
Thanks for this engagement though. This really helps me ponder these things and think of doing the right thing. 💜
Sometimes we don't know what the right thing really is, we just have to do something, which you are doing. I'd say don't be too hard on yourself, evaluate, make decisions, plan and then take action...That's the only way forward I think.
That I will keep in mind 💜💜 Thank you @galenkp .
Hi @arlin19
My heart goes out to you, I think every mother feels inadequate at times and like we need to be doing more or doing things differently. I know it all too well.
A friend of mine told me a while back that you need to look at what you are doing for her. Even if you can't be at her side all the time, she knows you are mama and she wouldn't want to have anyone else hold that name.
If you truly want to make that decision, then that is your choice, even though you say you know you can't change the things as they currently stand, we always have the choice to change things or plan and build towards them as goals.
Parenting is difficult at the best of times, don't be too hard on yourself. If everything else in your personal life is going well, you've got more right than most people. You got this 🌷
Thank you for those kind words, @andrastia 💜
Actually, this engagement helped me share something that I've been keeping all by myself.
Yes, everything will be fine in the end. 😇
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This is so touching. She's just a kid and doesn't understand it all yet. I hope everything falls in place for you and you can spend more time with your daughter.
I love your pictures!
Hoping for the best. Thanks for dropping by @wolfofnostreet 😇