When it is enough, just change...

Hi,

my fellow @revisesociology had an interesting post, that can be read in here.

We've met a couple of times in real life, and can tell that even if he writes that is far from anything he wants to be, he is lit. Managed to trick me for more than 6 months, that he speaks German.

But his post has some good wisdom points, somehow, I identify with some of the things he puts on the chain. I would describe it as a missed life opportunity. Somehow, at least I, feel that time is running at an accelerated pace, and we are not there where we wanted to be. Had some experiences in the past years, that took their toll on me, and somehow, have the feeling that everything is moving too slow and a lot of chances are missed.

It is that sometimes I'm making excuses instead of doing the right thing, like @revisesociology said, I feel it, but somehow, on some days, I need to just let it go. Well, what is the purpose of all of it in the end?
For me was easy to define, I want to live so long to see my grandchildren and be able to hold them in my arms. Also, my son and wife shall have everything they need, and don't have ever a worry that we can't afford. I'm not talking about riches like driving a Rolls or stuff like that, but decent things, like if they require a new pair of shoes, they shall buy it. In my youth I did not have this perks, and it happened quite often, that I was wearing broken shoes, with tears in the sole. Now we don't have this issue, but if something happens to me, they will probably have a tough time, and here the pressure starts, as I'm far from what I wanted to achieve at this age. It is mostly my fault. As I like to say, I'm the sum of my decisions. Now back to the topic, in the past months, I did some serious changes, as the status quo, was unsettling.

It was one of that moments, where I know I've done shait, and had to fix it. I was looking in the mirror, and didn't like what I've seen. That was my moment. One day, woke up, looked in the mirror, and said, this needs to change. The process is long, but a lot of progress has been made, we moved from an 8-story flat to a single family home, which is very hard to get in the centre of the city where we live. Life is more mindful now.

It will take at least 6 months, to be there where I want to be, but without that first step, it would not have happened.

What about you? Do you struggle with yourself?

Posted Using InLeo Alpha