Winter Walks and Emotional Storms: A Personal December Diary

A few days ago, my father sent me a bunch of photos from his place in Austria, and I liked what I saw there - proper winter weather with snow and everything. My father, who's 63, mentioned that when the snow came, he found every reason to be out in it.

Back in the days when I was a kid, I remember how hard it was for my parents to get me inside during winter snowy days. Times have changed, and so has the damn weather. We've had so much rain lately, and although it took a bit of a break, the forecast is showing there's more to come in the following days.

These days suck, though. I know we're in the month of joy and holidays, but my mood is kind of gray and gloomy, just like the outdoor landscape. That didn't stop me from doing my daily walks, though. It's how I got these pics in this post here.

Yesterday, I commented on a post by @galenkp, saying that I am not a coffee drinker. Well, I lied; I do sometimes drink coffee, maybe something like ten times a year or so. I was never a coffee person and never will be.

I don't mind caffeine, though. As a matter of fact, I'm having a RedBull right now. Not for the energy-boosting attributes of the sugary beverage but mostly for the taste. I really love the taste of energy drinks. When it comes to caffeine, although not a coffee person, I have my fair share of it in the form of gym pre-workouts and related supplements.

If I were a coffee person, I'd probably look at the weather we're having right now with different eyes, but I'm not... Hence I see it as it is: gray, gloomy, and shitty. But is it really the weather that gave me this messed up emotional state, or is it my emotional state that pours too much gray on the canvas?

I don't know...

I feel so purposeless sometimes... I should have probably started a family when I had the chance; that would have definitely given me more purpose and drive. Maybe... I don't know...

I mentioned in quite a few of my previous posts that I treat my Hive blog like it is my journal, and whoever reads this (probably fewer and fewer people than there used to be a couple of years or so) should know that I don't usually show my weakness in real life. I'm stone-cold when I'm offline.

I can afford being myself on my blog because, as George Carlin used to say: nobody seems to bother, nobody seems to care... Man, I so miss "the analog age," the times when getting connected meant being face to face with the one you were supposed to connect.

Now it's so much easier to stay in touch with everybody, but on the other hand, it feels like we've become so distant in the process... Or not... Anyway, I hope you guys are having way sunnier days than I have and that you're healthy and well. We'll get in touch later.

Thanks for your attention,
Adrian