I go at my own pace

For the proper functioning of our body it is essential to rest. There are times when I sleep deeply but when I wake up I feel that I do not rest at all. So before going to sleep I have set myself the goal of preparing myself mentally to relax and thus have a pleasant rest that allows me to renew energy and feel encouraged to do the daily chores with enthusiasm.

When I do not sleep well I am a real prisoner of apathy that prevents me from carrying my day with joy and freedom. Ironically, when I am very tired I find it very difficult to sleep, I toss and turn in bed and far from falling asleep what I do is stress myself to the point that I feel like running away and when I finally get to sleep I start dreaming a lot of incoherent things. The truth is that I do not rest at all.

For the above reasons I have adopted a series of sleeping habits that have worked for me. It's all about going to bed to relax to detoxify from the stress of the day and give way to real rest. One of the techniques is to put my legs up against the wall and then spread them so that I make a sort of triangle between my hips and legs. This helps me not only to relax but also with my hip problem. In addition to this, I play relaxing music, usually instrumental, preferably sounds coming from the piano and I do diaphragmatic breathing.

Once I have been in this process for a while I relax to the point of falling asleep and the truth is that I do not remember the moment when I straightened my legs and adopted the normal position in bed to sleep. It is unbelievable that this world causes so much stress to the point that something as natural as sleeping becomes difficult for me, however, I do not focus on that. We live in times when we have to be practical, to look for the solution without thinking so much about the difficulty. I consider that this is a key factor to feel freedom and not to continue being captive of the disturbing thoughts that sometimes are so hateful that they settle in my mind without any permission. The idea is to solve and I have been achieving it little by little.

There are people who barely put their head on the pillow and fall asleep deeply, before I was anguished because I wanted to be like that, but part of the evolution of a human being is to assimilate that we are different and not to fall into the hateful comparisons. Good for the people who sleep at once, that's as far as my thinking goes nowadays. I am different and I must have my preparation process to have a genuine rest so I do it and that's it. Everyone carries their own burdens or rather their own rhythm and if my rhythm is to have a process to rest then I just do it because it is the way to understand diversity and accept myself as I am.

There are many other things in which I am completely different from those around me but it doesn't matter, I go at my own pace and that has given me freedom. I have to work on other aspects, however, I go step by step so as not to stress myself. Life is more beautiful without stress.

The photos are my own taken with a Realme 7i