Love To Chaos To Zero

People know me to be very friendly which is true but the one thing they don’t know is I don’t even have friends and that’s for my own peace of mind. The very few friends I have are friends I’ve had for 17 years +.

Some years back, I got a best friend in high school. We were inseparable, happy doing everything together. To me, she was literally perfect or you could say I really loved this best friend. Hold on, I forgot to say that I’m also very nonchalant as a person so if I start caring about someone then that person means a lot.
Alright, press play! So this best friend was one of my favourite persons at that time.

She was a prefect in school and I on the other hand was nothing. Honestly, I had my own agenda on that campus and being a prefect would have definitely limited me from reaching the sky(the stubborn ones will get this).
Anytime she offended me and I expressed my disappointment, she would defend herself as if her life depended on it. She always made sure to make it look like I rather offended her. I then would just apologize to her, I mean, I didn’t want to lose her.

It became a normal thing in the friendship. She offends me, I say it, she pins it on me and then I apologize. Sometimes it was really painful but as I said, when I start caring about someone, not even the 37 elders of Heaven can change my mind. There was this particular day that one of our colleagues rushed to my dormitory to tell me to warn my best friend. I just laughed it off because why should I be the one to warn my best friend and not you? To be honest, I wasn’t even surprised because at a point I started receiving a lot of complaints from people about her.

So that was just a normal day in my life where it was impossible to end the day without another complaint about her. I got fed up at a point and just decided to confront her and that’s where my eyes opened. Just after I explained to her all the complaints I had been receiving all this while, she started shouting at me and I also reciprocated it because what do you even mean? It got everyone’s attention and then we both walked out on each other.(It was a whole scene). Whatever love had blinded me, melted down and my eyes opened.

Hurt is an understatement…I was literally weak in the knees and come on! the embarrassment was over the moon because we all saw ourselves as queens in girls’ school. She got punished for behaving like that as a prefect which made me feel guilty but I still couldn’t stand her and anytime I saw her, I got angry. Anytime I saw her, I panicked. Even though I had vow never to apologize, I just had to do it one last time.

I wrote one long apology letter with gifts and sent a junior to deliver it to her one night. She was so excited to hear from me and was ready to be friends again but unfortunately for her, an additional member from Heaven had joined the 37 elders to become 38 elders of Heaven to change my mind about her so I didn’t care about her anymore. On the bright side, it felt like a burden had been lifted from my heart. From that day, I never panicked after seeing her. We became just class mates and nothing more.

Most importantly, I was no more angry after seeing her and I never got any thoughts of pouring super glue on her seat anymore.( I know, I intentionally didn’t add this in the beginning)

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