Cry You A River Or Just Stare

Three days ago, I slept very late because we left evening church service late, almost after everyone had left. Blame my sister and her long conversations. I had plans of waking up late the following morning but around 6am, I heard someone laughing which woke me up. I tried continuing my sleep so I pulled the duvet around my head to block any sound from entering my ears. The sound reduced but it didn’t stop. Unlike others who would have rushed to check what was happening, I’m naturally not an inquisitive person so nothing was even moving me to go and look for whatever was happening for that person to laugh.

After about 30 minutes of not being able to sleep, I removed the duvet around my head and just gave in. I got up, opened my eyes and started searching for where the laughter was coming from. After being fully awake, it wasn’t sounding so much like laughter.
“What is this again?which ghost is even scaring me this early morning”.
I realized the sound was coming from the bathroom and the shower was also on.
“So this ghost, isn’t just coming to scare me in peace… he/she wants to waste water and increase bills?

As I was still contemplating if I should mind my business and let the ghost have the “bath” of his/her afterlife, I realized “no, it wasn’t laughter. “Someone was in there crying. But wait? Since when did ghosts start seeing shege for them to also cry?”
Without thinking twice, I just opened the door only to find my sister crying in the shower.
Now, I was confused because she always leaves the house at 6am so what was she doing at home at 7am?…

Before she could even say anything I had gone for my phone ready to dial her boyfriend’s number and warn him to watch his back.
She looked at me and I just knew her grandma was gone because she was admitted at the hospital the previous day. (That boyfriend was just lucky). Her grandma had passed that morning and looking at their relationship she was really hurt. Don’t be confused, yes she’s my sister but we have separate grandmas.

Normally, you would expect that I console her right? Come and see me staring at her as she cried her heart out. Not that I even hugged her or anything. I was there looking at her like a tree. This is not first time. Anytime I see someone crying or hurt, it’s so hard for me to console them. It’s either I also cry or I just stand and stare. I may look like some hard girl but I’m very soft at heart. I dont even watch korean dramas anymore because of this before I end up crying a river because Jii won suu or whoever has cheated on Jii won saa. Anyway, I later sent her out to enjoy the sunset.

I don’t see this changing anytime soon but I’m just hoping oneday I don’t go and cry too much for the real victim to even end up consoling me.

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